5 years now since I knew Ala, it was a strange meeting for a person who will be one of my closest friends for 5 years. We went through a lot together, success, failure, happiness, sadness, made same friends and shared same feelings, and above all same office and same program.
Zajel Youth Exchange Program, many participants came and left, we observed their success and their departure. We watched Zajel growing up together, Zajel was a part of me, a part you torn up from my heart, once I had a fight with a friend when he said: F… Zajel if it will touch my dignity!! I protest, I explained what is Zajel, Zajel is above all feelings, we don’t own zajel, zajel owns us, and we are all for it.
Zajel was an illusion, I gave Zajel all I could give, Zajel was my home, I only feels me there.
Ala you sent me a nasty e-mail, I read the nastiest thing ever, I was shocked, angry, disgust was dominating my feelings. I wanted to reply right away, I couldn’t, your e-mail left me speechless.
How could you blame me for choosing my freedom? All the claims in your e-mail are void and you know that, you were contradicting yourself and I am ashamed to say that you were negating all what you call for. Why?
That I went to Cairo? That I traveled to USA without your approval? That I left RC and was almost going back? Many things we discussed when we were in USA and you were giving me flipping answers.
One day will write you back, your e-mail will remain unanswered but one day I will write you back and you will see that you were mistaken dumping a friend. If you just remembered how close we were and how much did I support you and believed in you, you will understand, remember, no on e has no mistakes!
