Nightmares are chasing me again

artificial bugs this time, i don't know how but i found my self travelling at a certain point of that dream, it was my family's house in Nablus but then it was a hosting family house, dirty and untidy!
i wanted to take a shower and i entered the bathroom it was occupied but i stayed and waited inside, while waiting in the steamy hot bathroom artificial plastic bugs with real legs and eyes appeared and started to walk around i tried to kill them but no one died as they were made of plastic flushing them didn't work too!! they kept appearing from no were constantly, i ran away with panic gathering my clean cloths to wake up on a raven's cawing!!

Nightmares are chasing me, i can't sleep proberly, it takes from my time and energy!!

mine and his

my daily horoscope is delivered daily to my email, i am a Scorpio, recently i noticed another sign's reading, his daily horoscope!! ya allah... his sign is associated with mine!! what a coincidence!! are we really a match made in heaven? I wonder...

Mine:

It's easy to get lost in a maze of choices, but focus and you can figure it out. You can't always tell what the best course of action is right away. Be open to new information, especially from unusual sources.

His:

Sometimes you feel like your ship is about to come in; other times you think it has completely gotten off course. Could both cases be true? It might just be that your luck is taking a roundabout path to get to you.

Ensa elli Ra7

It was 4:14 when I work up this afternoon, nightmares and wired dreams are catching up with me for the last few days, I see wars in different locations out side Palestine, I don’t recognize it but I know it’s not Palestine, I see children’s remains, I see demolished houses, I see people fled there houses, I see field officers shouting at their soldiers and me watching this scene helpless!!

I woke up, checked my email- No new messages!! Did the world abandon me? I called my sister, she asked me to join her and her husband, he will be at home any minute with Hakam, ok; I will shower and come as fast as I can, at 5:03 I was locking my apartment’s door with a cigarette between my tired fingers. I walked slowly in the garden heading to the main gate, I tried to walk as slow as I could, I know he will be leaving work now- his company is across the street, I don’t want to meet with him, I don’t want my eyes to follow the lines of his body. I sat at a plastic chair by the gate and waited to finish the cigarette, I crossed the gate, his car was still there… ok I can walk fast to reach the service to Betounia before he leaves.

I managed, called Yasmin to tell her I am in the way, Bashar (her husband) answered, he said yalla hurry up we are starving, Hakam says bring your laptop. Ok I will.

I returned slowly, my sight was stepping faster to see if his car is still there, it’s moving, he is leaving, my legs kept stepping ahead and I prayed he doesn’t see me.

The sun was reflecting on his car, his car was the only thing I could see, and the scene was empty, just me and his car.

He didn’t stop, I didn’t wonder if he saw me or not, I just though: he didn’t see me!!

It’s 11:42 pm now—no messages, no calls, just me and my computer.

Ensa elli ra7 (click to download and listen)

Ana ablak ya 7abibi khanitni el eyyam

W 3alayye la ma t5abbi w be 3younak kalam

3ashe2 enta ya albi w dayeb bel ‘3aram

Dayeb bel ‘3aram

Ensa elli ra7 ya albi rta7

Hayk el ‘3aram laysh el malam

W la btehda youm wala bterta7

Shu 6alet ha layali w sha’3aloni el 3esha2

Ma sa2alo 3an 7ali ya nar el ashwa2

W ba3don 3ala bali w ana dayman meshta2

W ana Dayman meshta2