Valentine Day they said

yesterday was one of the worst days ever, Asem is out of the coma but... a palsy in his feet and he lost the ability to talk!!!
Owen is leaving to work in Beeth lehem for good, we didn't spend a long time together but i feel that he's close to me!!!
i think that me and Ian reached a dead end, i also don't think that our friendship will follow the same path now on specially after yesterday's call and text message!!!

it's all coming back to me all the bad things in my short life is catching up with me 'while i have enough problems for the moment.
i feel like crying but I'm trying not to, i don't want to be week again, besides crying won't give me any thing back r relief me any more.

time is a torture!!! days and nights are nightmares.

i will keep asking this question with a slight difference; is 5 months a long time?
but this time no one will resopond...
i think i will go back to my old strategy, living in the memories, having my own world and stay away of people's infections.